Rainy Wednesday

Well my day started out by me flying out of bed to the screams of my daughter. It was 7:30 and she was yelling. I didn't even hear Jerad leave, and I was a bit confused. She had to go to the bathroom and thankfully got some relief from her constipation issue, but it is never a pretty sight when that happens. Painful. It got her so upset that she started gagging and also throwing up on the floor in front of the toilet. Her nose has been running so drainage issues are complicating matters. I am not one that handles vomiting very well. I just don't. Ask my husband, I virtually made him sign a prenuptial agreement when we got married that he is responsible for all puke. Unfortunately, having a cancer patient under our roof is not helping matters any. So, I also started gagging at this point and broke out into a cold sweat. Some caretaker I am.

We recovered from that, but Ally just didn't have a good day. I keep trying to map out how the chemo effects her. I just can't get it!!!! It is always different and they are always giving her different types of chemo. I just don't know exactly what is going on inside her little body. I do know she was down today. It seems to me that she does okay the first few days after chemo, but then her counts start bottoming out and so does she. It wouldn't surprise me if she needed blood again.

Her little friend Madden wanted to see her. I knew Ally felt bad and couldn't do much. So her sweet friend just brought over a movie and sat and watched it with her. Kids this age...they do know friendship. They do it and we don't even really have to teach them. It must be somewhat human nature. I am learning all about it and it is precious. Her friend Madison also wanted to see her, so she went to her house for a little bit. Always good to get out.

Other than that, we watched the rain pour down all day outside our bubble. It never stopped...all day. It was quite dreary and seemed especially dreary and depressing to me today. Where is summer anyway? Once while Ally was doing this:
I took the other two kids out to play in the warm July rain. My Gramma Ruth always says you have to get out each day to "blow the stink off" so we followed her motto. My hobby..my favorite thing to do is photography. For obvious reasons this has taken the back seat lately. Lately I usually just point and click and I don't even bother with my "good" camera...but rather use one that fits in my back pocket. Today, I took out my baby, my camera, and tried to get some more artistic shots. Actually looking at the composition and the ISO and the white balance, etc. I haven't done it for months. A little rusty. When I am all done with this saga in my life...I am gonna learn. I am vowing right now that I am gonna read more, study more, maybe even get the master photographer Erin Cobb to do an online class or something. But for now, I was happy to just get a few fun shots and play a little. Grown ups need to play too.

Baby Girl, and I love her curls!...a bit skeptical of the rain and lurking in the garage

Evan making the most of the puddle at the end of the driveway..I was trying to catch the little droplets in my shot.

Soon to be five years old....my boy.

He loved the rain today. At least somebody did!

And thus, I will cease complaining about the rainiest of days. Sorry. And I will share an excerpt from the great poet Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (remember him?) which reminds me that if it were sunny every day, then we would never appreciate the sunny days.

Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.